“I fell in love with you from scratch. You were the opposite from what I thought I liked in a person. And because of that, I’m terrified that I will look for you in someone else one day. I’m terrified that I will want someone just like you, who called me and didn’t hang up until morning, who texted me sweet messages at 4am while I was sleeping, who gave me his jacket when I was cold even though he was cold too, who didn’t let go of my hand even when he was busy, who sang off pitch and made me laugh when I was stressed out, who looked at me softly and hugged me tightly, who gave me the best few times of my life, who once made me feel more loved than I had ever felt. I’m terrified that I’ll think, “you aren’t him.“”
— and that’ll kill the both of us.
